I Must Still Have Some Worth

I don't mind when she lays on my shoulder and speaks to me about myself and my behavior

When she tells me of how my actions have hurt us and our future

I have learned to not negate what she says because i don't believe it

because if she is saying that she feels this then this is her truth

I don't mind when she raises her voice about issues that are serious for her

Even when i think she is over-exaggerating and being too extreme

I try to always reflect later on what took past between us to try and better address the situation

On the outside people would marginalize this to love

I feel that respect is greater than love because people hit the children they love

Grab the spouse they love and neglect them as a punishment

People don't speak to people they love for years over small things

But people always give people they respect room to grow

The benefit of doubt and the room to change for the better

I respect her mind so I listen to her thoughts

I respect her decisions so I try to partner mine with hers

When she is done talking and I have listened intently

I find that I am better because of the time I have taken

I learned more about myself by listen to the perception of me from someone I respect

Someone that I don't limit to love

Someone that stretches my boundaries to be greater

If I am angry about anything it is that I never got it before

I don't romanticize any past relationship errors that could be corrected

I appreciate this moment in time of my life

Everything changes

But every change does not make you better

More prepared for the fact that at some period and time in your life

You have more past and less future to look forward to having

So you have to enjoy her softness and character

And her character has to be what you live for as time and gravity weighs in

And understand that I an a handful

But I have a life of living to give

And if she wants to share it with me

Then I must still have some worth...

Umbilical

In a time when creativity and original ideas seem to be limited

Where loyalty has taken an all time low

Where you really have to be careful of whom you consider friends

And really evaluate those you feel are enemies

All experiences teach you lessons

What you retain has to make you better when you see this again

Pretend you share the same placenta as a thinker

That you evaluate yourself and your energies and what surrounds you

That you can explain all of your actions and reasons for all the things that you do

Pretend that you are deliberate with your speech

And that you think before you speak

And that you understand the repercussions of erroneous words

That you understand what is said and what is not said

And that you evaluate actions so a lot does not need be said

Pretend that in this placenta you feel the emotions of creator

And you have that burst of energy that pushes you past stale environments

Makes you seek the positive in the situation

And to give yourself encouragements because very few give you genuine feedback

Pretend all of the women that you have dealt with understand that if its over you can still speak

Their emotions don't have to overbear their sensibility to be around you

That they should see that you have accepted rejection before

And that rejection is not death to anything but rather life to new realities

Pretend you are a man and you have to let go of childish things

Move into more secured areas that allow your children to feel safe

Understand the the transition from boy to man is an unclear line with no time attached

Know that anger and hate don't qualify as justifications for violence

And that there is nothing as strong as gentleness

And nothing is as gentle as real strength

And you do not have to be a pacifist to not like war

Now get back into your own reality

And you can see why I keep cutting the umbilical