I Must Still Have Some Worth

I don't mind when she lays on my shoulder and speaks to me about myself and my behavior

When she tells me of how my actions have hurt us and our future

I have learned to not negate what she says because i don't believe it

because if she is saying that she feels this then this is her truth

I don't mind when she raises her voice about issues that are serious for her

Even when i think she is over-exaggerating and being too extreme

I try to always reflect later on what took past between us to try and better address the situation

On the outside people would marginalize this to love

I feel that respect is greater than love because people hit the children they love

Grab the spouse they love and neglect them as a punishment

People don't speak to people they love for years over small things

But people always give people they respect room to grow

The benefit of doubt and the room to change for the better

I respect her mind so I listen to her thoughts

I respect her decisions so I try to partner mine with hers

When she is done talking and I have listened intently

I find that I am better because of the time I have taken

I learned more about myself by listen to the perception of me from someone I respect

Someone that I don't limit to love

Someone that stretches my boundaries to be greater

If I am angry about anything it is that I never got it before

I don't romanticize any past relationship errors that could be corrected

I appreciate this moment in time of my life

Everything changes

But every change does not make you better

More prepared for the fact that at some period and time in your life

You have more past and less future to look forward to having

So you have to enjoy her softness and character

And her character has to be what you live for as time and gravity weighs in

And understand that I an a handful

But I have a life of living to give

And if she wants to share it with me

Then I must still have some worth...