Portable Solutions

Technology has become affordable

And let me be recordable and portable

Available anywhere there is a will

And an ear to make it clear

People can take it with

If you can't remember the solution

You can store it on you your device as a gif

Jpeg, pdf and make the MF

Quit making BMs and BDs

And slide it to the VLs and GDs

Bloods and Crips

Gangstas, Thugs and Nerds

All at one time simultaneously

With a fast blast full of DNA

Decoded Natural Agression

At a system of fools in control of who lives and dies

See we perform suicide not so revolutionary

Daily I see the spirit sacrificed

For the material made of something already expired

Giving life for death

Filling our lungs and our lives with poison

Disrespecting breath

Tragic the devil never seems to be asthmatic

Its only the gods and earths that hold their jewels

But we all should just throw our seeds

For its not for us to know

What will be watered

Or decide to take root

Nor what time it will grow

In Search Of...

In search of a good woman

That understands that I am a good man

One that will not try and dictate who I should be

But one that accepts me as I do her

A single woman

I do not want another mans woman

Because she is another mans woman

I want a woman that can love me for who I am

Not a woman that wants me to turn into who she wants me to be

I resolve now that I surely have not met her yet

The next time I meet a woman

I am going to take all the mess that I have been through

And learn from it this time

I am sure I have overstayed my welcome here

Nothing is going right

And no matter what I do I am not happy

I have those thoughts again

And I need to be strong for my children

I need to be strong for myself

I can't trust anyone anymore

This is depressing

In search of a new way of living

Wonder if God is really mad at me for being me

I try so much to give to people and help

But it seems like I am not getting any help

I made concessions before to move for love

Now I hate that decision because I no longer am safe

I close the deal and get the job and I am told to leave

I work harder than ever and still get worse results

I keep having those thoughts again

And I can't do that to anyone

This is my fault

I have to take ownership

I am alone because I will not take shit

And this is fine for me

Nobody I want wants me

Nor do I trust the ones that say they want me

For what

What do they want

Why are they here

Why am I even writing

Who wants to read or hear this

This is so personal but all out in other peoples conversations

They don't fucking know me

Nosy ass witches trying to cast spells on me

Wishing me the worst luck

I will prosper

But for now I have to disappear

Because I am in search of something better

A better place where people respect me

And respect that I can do what is right

And know I do not throw around words like I love you

Nor do i spend my time with people that are not special to me

So here we go

Changing numbers

Changing addresses

And leaving everything behind

In search of something better

A place that may not exist

As I question the worth of my existence to more than my seeds

My son would miss me

My mother would miss me

Everyone else would just pass on the story of who they thought I was

Which I probably was not

I don't need the spotlight

I don't need the stage

I am so sick of being surrounded by greedy people

I am so sick of hearing empty promises

These fucking people just want to bitch

They just want to complain

They just want to live in theory

They don't want to do shit to change their own situations

So I'm done wasting my time on them and this idea of us

Do I even care if anyone remembers me

I surrounded by so many selfish people

Complaining about nothing as I loose everything

Ha Ha I can only laugh

And understand that I am on this path for a reason

A reason that I am in search of

Because I really do not know

I don't want to be patronized

I really need to close this down and spend some time alone...

B.U.L.L.Y

I better understand lives like yours

You demonstrate a lack of willingness

To accept the individuality of others

Something inside you smothers your humanity

Your humility absent because you don’t feel loved

You were abused – raised in the dark

And my light shines so bright

You frown as so not to drown

In your own inadequacies

You sink deeper into groupthink

You are toughest when you are with others

Alone I exhibit more strength than any group

Decide my own direction until perfection

When you or your group start doing what I do

I must be doing something else

In order to stay fresh – and you need me

Your existence is so gray and archaic

Someone told you that pushing me would hurt me

And it would make you feel better

But all it did was help me become stronger

The longer you harass me

The weaker you become

I become numb to your name-calling

I loose all desire to be around you

Or anyone else like you

I grow a distain for anyone

Or anything that condones your type of behavior

We cannot have the same Savior

My God can never be that abusive

I felt alone everyday

Inside my home I closed the door

And I’d go deeper inside of me

I won’t hide inside of my pride

To stoop to homo or suicide

But don’t push me

You love to say “or what!”

“What are you going to do about it!”

Well, I am going to remain who I am

And gain strength while you

Disappear into nothingness

The older we get the better you used to be

The better I am currently

I will travel this planet and see

That the whole world loves someone like me

I was born with natural leadership qualities

You say you know people

People say they know me

And publically or silently

They always admire my ability to be free

I better understand lives like yours now

You used to chase me home

You and your friends used to make life hard

The older we get the more of you

Are now behind bars

The older we get the less respected

All of you have become

You all used to be so cool

Now you all look so dumb

You made me an outsider

So now of course I’m not here for acceptance

Every time I perform

I am having creative conversations with my Creator

Of which I’ve given you permission to listen

Multifaceted we are – painting pictures

Painting pictures actual or abstract

But always graphic

And I would love for you to love it

But if you don’t I rise above it

See the drama and the trauma that I went through

Makes me never covet any acceptance from you

Through all of life’s complications

I put together bits and pieces of my life as presentations

To the resilience of human manifestations of triumph

Someone you picked on as a nobody

Now I am a GIANT

“I’m 20 feet tall”

And I don’t mess with you at all

But if you mess with me

You’ll soon see my ability

To remove all noise from my life

To find my harmony

Yes I am that little boy from Catholic school

The one you said only had

1 shirt, 1 tie and 1 pair of pants

The one you would not let be

Until I learned that the only one

I could depend on to fight for me

Is me

So Bully

I better understand lives like yours now

So I’ll dedicate this life of mine

To let the children know they are safe

And there are more of their kind than yours

And our job won’t be done

Until the last child tells a bully

You will leave me alone

I am no longer afraid of you

There are people here that understand me

And will protect me if you continue

So I refuse to run!

Look out world here I come!

See I better understand live like yours now

And it’s time

You better understood

Lives

Like

Mine…

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It Continues

I continually get disrespected by people that I trusted

This continually let's me know that I do not think as much about myself as I should

I know people say I have a big ego

People say I am full of myself

It is truly these people that do not know me

I have a big heart

I am just not a fool

People confuse poet and punk

Because I am in the arts folks think I won't fight

I don't like to fight

Rarely start them but I am determined to finish them

I don't bother people

I really dont want to be bothered by them

I stay in my lane and do my thing

And do me

I must look stupid to people around me

I must look like I dont work hard

I am unorganized or I can't take care of business

I can take care of business

I just watch what people say and what they dont say

Watch what they do and what they dont do

People tell you a lot about them under pressure

Most can't take it

And then try and bring you in on their short comings

Not me

I'd rather start over and keep it moving

Or just continue on my destiny

The Magic Box

That magic box holds notes as quotes

In reverence to strokes

Sliding scales of her frequencies

My tendons limber

And its been weeks since I felt her lips

I grab her face when I kiss her

So they poke out

How I like it when she pouts

Her eyes roll back in her head

We would think she is dead

If it weren't for the things she said

She says my name

And other phrases like

OMG - what is this

My name

Hold it I can't breathe

My name

See I know its a game asthma or not

If you saying anything you can breathe

So I keep it going deeply

She loves it when I kiss her breasts

She even kisses them too

They are uniquely shaped

And they fit in my mouth

I miss her tongue

Her sucking me

I miss her strong grip

And her acknowledging how good it is

"How good it is..."

"How good it is..."

"How good it is..."

"How God he is..."

I hear in my head

So am I zoning over all that has put me in a zone

I may not speak to her again

I may speak to her again

"The sex is blazing"

"And it's so amazing"

But can the relationship compare

We will always let us sabotage us

Some tricks in her magic box

Make me disappear

But only physically

I have penetrated deeper than her ear

Left competing memories

Then again...

I may just think too much of myself

Abbra Cadabbra tho

Onto another bro

I know they still call

They never fully let they exes ever go

If they told you a name

Or they remember them easily

They bring back their spirits

Saying they only have a few intimate

Numbers go down on presentation

Go up in discovery

I never think about them when I'm in her

I never thought about them before I touched her

I never thought about them after she came

The vanishing various influences on her vagina

After she got caught in my rhythm...

Listen to the music